“It’s all about falling in love with yourself and sharing that love with someone who appreciates you, rather than looking for love to compensate for a self love deficit.” ~ Eartha Kitt
As this “List things people don’t know about you” game is circulating around Facebook, I have been fascinated at not only what people are writing about themselves, but writing about myself as well!! I started thinking, “Am I that self-indulgent” that I loved taking on the task so much and I am actually itching to do it again with a whole new set personal stats??!!
I came across this quote and it dawned on me. I have spent the last two years restoring my love for myself. Restoring my self-worth. Up until then I had become someone who second guessed every action and every word that came out of my mouth…the inevitable side effects of living with a partner that has an addiction for many years. Being questioned and doubted and inadequately treated for quite some time takes its toll and eventually you start to do the same thing to yourself.
I am happy to say that taking this time to focus on myself (and obviously my children) I am restoring that self confidence and self-worth and have taken the time to fall in love with myself for the first time. Not in a selfish or narcissistic way, but a respectful love in knowing that there are positives and negatives about me. It’s what makes me…me! I think that’s where this list comes into play…I love looking at my good, my bad, my uniqueness, my shortcomings. And I adore reading about others’ admissions of themselves.
So all this time by myself without a partner, the self love deficit is being satisfied. Work in progress…but definitely in the right direction.
Now, can we get back to my next list???